Wednesday, November 23, 2005

.fcuk.

caution: dont bother to read. i am just venting my anger in this entry. it will be a waste of your precious time to read the following.

ARGH!

i am so freaking pissed off now. argh! today is just the wrong day. exhausted? burnt out? watever. i dun care. i am so sick and tired of everything now. it does not seem as fun as it was to me now. all the walking and walking and walking, queueing outside the damn few pathetic fitting rooms, trying out to see how it looks like on me, thinking whether it fits my budget not. what the crap!!!! why so many things??? i am just giving myself more work to do during the holidays. i am supposed to enjoy myself. wouldn't it be nice if this is just like any normal trip. buying things i like, i will use very often, pampering myself, coming back home with bags after bags. i hate it when it is a fruitless trip and i had 3 in a row. DAMN! i hate it! irritating. getting so freaking irritated by everything. throwing my temper at home. freak! why am i losing it again. argh!!!!! i hate it! can someone just give me a tight slap on my face to wake me up. welcome to the reality girl. you do not get everything you want everytime. face the truth! stressed out? yes, i guess i am because i hate last min work. i am a planner. i need to get everything in place and ready ASAP so that i can feel secure. now, everything is screwed up. everything is behind my schedule. freaking pissed off. i have no more time left. i will be packed for the next few days. come on, i have other committments okay. yesyes, trying to act busy right? watever. i dun care. i am just busy. accept it or not and it is none of my business. i am losing my patience at everything. you push me a slightly more and i will explode. i am so pissed off. pissed off pissed off. pissed off. pissed off. pissed off. why am i getting so damn angry over such a small matter? shit me lah. i am such a lousy freak. i dont deserve to live. kill me now. quick, pass me a gun. irritating!!!!! i am thinking if i should just bycott it and join them after it. damn it. why on earth will i think of this?

ARGH!


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